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These mountains are drawn to symbolize the opposing powers in all of creation. A mountain of hate and a mountain of love.

One more reason to believe in a power you can’t see.

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Out of the darkness comes light, and in the pit of despair the power of God’s light shines the brightest. Giving someone like me a chance to change my whole world and escape the disappointments, hurt, and perpetual negativity. There is another main reason I became a Christian I still have yet to share. One more reason to believe that has helped me see things differently ever since I was a teen. It’s also a story that helped me understand an important mystery that no one else seems to be talking about from what I can tell. It all started by going down a path that gave me a lot of grief. A path which seems so far away and so long ago, but it still led me to understand something so unique that I feel like I should share. If a sad story helps one person see beyond the heartache I went through, is that worth the trouble?
 

The struggle begins

I grew up in a loving home but one of the hardest parts for me growing up is that we moved a lot. I never went to the same school for more than 2 years in a row except for home school, 2nd-4th grade. My brother and I grew up in 2 different small towns until we came to live in the city, this happened in 6th grade. My second year of public school, just before becoming a teenager. Unfortunately that was also the year the divorce happened.
 
Now that I’m grown, I see how much the divorce affected my outlook but at the time I was oblivious to it. What I was not oblivious to is the way I felt every year that went by as I begin to hate going to school, making new friends, and the idea of fitting in. I was a very shy kid, a little bit of a nerd. I was an artist who didn’t fit in with the style, it was a mess. I share all this not to throw a pity party, but to share where I came from, and what God brought me out of.
 
That next year I started getting more aggressive and getting into more fights. It seems like everyday I was getting more and more frustrated as the years went on.  My anger started to grow into depression and eventually hatred.  I felt that I allowed my heart to become so dark that I went to a place few people come back from. I began to believe that all happiness was fake, I hated everything and everyone. To me School started to feel like a military exercise and every day I was getting dressed for war. I allowed my imagination to take me to such a dark place that it forever changed me, the sweet kid I used to be was gone.

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Learning to love

Right now it’s hard to admit all these things I used to feel because I feel ashamed of how disgusting it was to be so hateful. But it’s amazing how much God has changed my heart, my mind, and my whole life. So much that it actually feels weird to talk about this anymore. I still have my own share of problems to deal with like anyone else, but I am completely removed from that place of mental anguish. Still, it’s important for others to understand what God has taught me, where I was coming from, and what He brought me out of. The purpose of the darkness is to reveal how much greater the light of God really is. 

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The Lord revealed himself to me through art but healed me through his love. He used my experience with hate to teach me how powerful love is and showed me how it’s supposed to work. God showed me The Everything which is above anything allowing me to see His knowledge that never fails. It took a long time for Him to clean the dirt and junk out of my heart but it was worth the years of trouble it took to do so. I am humbled my what He has done in my life that I am still in awe of it. Today I am able to smile with joy, laugh, and experience true peace that doesn’t go away. He’s given someone like me a beautiful wife and 3 smart kids who may never understand the darkness I walked through. And I hope they never do.

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I wanted to take my opportunity to explain the idea I learned years ago that helped me overcome that time of my life. I broke it down into 2 videos, one describing the limitations of hatred and the other explaining the absolute power of God’s love. Let me know what you think.

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